The End

Today is the my last day of being 21. Tomorrow when I wake up I will be 22. I really pray 22 is better than 21, not that 21 wasnt great or anything. Run down of the past year: My b'day last year: six flags with Ben, Chris, Claire, and Daniel. That evening while Dan and I were talking in a feild looking at the stars I actually believed that he was going to break up with me. I went to school last summer at GPC. Then in the fall began Nursing School and daniel and I broke up in September or October. We got back together two weeks later and broke up two weeks after that. Thanksgiving and Christmas were a blur, although I am sure at the time I had fun with my family and best friends. I went back to school in January and woke up a bit out of my daze from the breakup. Febuary passed by as though it did not happen and March came quite quickly. Daniel and I started talking during my spring break, although I was really mean to him. Spring break I do remember because I was really excited about that week... Nana's, my first date since Daniel, trip with the girls to savannah that was epic (absolutely!), Retreat with Mom, and then another date with that guy. Daniel and I hung out for the first time the day that the other guy left town. It was awkward at first but we soon realized that even without touching, just hanging out as friends, there is something there. It is an incredible indescribable feeling when you just know by being in the prescence of that person. We began dating a week later on the 17th?? lol. And now a month later.... we are still very much in love. (that's the beginning of the "real esme story" :P) So... last night I went to Cheescake factory with my best friends, it was amazing. Tonight my friends are coming over so we can hang out and eat a cheesecake that my mommy made :) I am really excited to find out what my daniel is doing for my bday. I really want to thank my parents and siblings for being there for me this year, I love ya'll sooooooo much!! And thank you to all the other people in my life who helped me thru out this year, I know I have been truely blessed. You will all stay in my prayers!!
Love,
 ER

A new day....

Hello,
Today I go on my second interview, in the quest to find a job. Yesterday was target, today is Starbucks. Praying something comes out of this. The interview is in an hour. I am very nerous, which is probably why I am typing short sentences like a kindergardener. Sorry. Ok... so I have gotten dressed, have my purse ready, coffee and food in belly, and read the bible. I am totally taking my bible with me to calm myself, cause as I just learned like 10mins ago, reading the bible actually works. Yay! Go Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit!!
I am so very in love with God. Ohhhhh in my devo that I am doing with my wonderful bf, we are studying Grace this week. So if you actually read this blog, please pray that God shows us what we need daily thru that. Ummmm.... ok.... so I gtg. More later, of course!
Love,
ER

Easter Sunday

Happy Easter Everyone...
Hope everyone is having fun with egg hunts, worship services, and family time. Please remember to rememeber the reason why we are celebrating today. Jesus Christ died on a cross, not a pretty lil metal shape containing diamonds that may hang from someone's neck, but wooden possibly splintery planks containing nails that were driven into His wrists and feet. He wore a crown of thorns that dug into his scalp, causing Him to loose even more blood. He had His back lashed open before He walked up to Calvary. He couldn't even carry the cross the entire way because of the abuse that His earthly body had obtained. He took his last breath next to a man whom He had just witnessed to and another whom did not believe. In three days time, after His body had been laying in a tomb, but His soul had been in hell opening the gates so that those whom He loved would not perish but would have eternal life. He came back to His earthly body so that we could rise again and go up to heaven to be with His father, until the time comes (which btw not even Jesus knows) that He can come back to earth again to save His Father's sons and daughters.
Now tell me.... Do you really think that He would have gone thru all that if He did not love you??
Jesus is amazing. So.... very very amazing that I can not even think of words or ways to show my admiration to Him who has done all this, and soo very much more for me. Just cause He loves us.

Easter Sunday Sermon: I AM the Resurrection and the Life

Sermon from church service this morn:

I AM the Resurrection and the Life

John 11:1-53

Jesus is the Resurrection and the Life.

      Sure hope and savior is with us thru death

Simply make known the prayers you have. No need for a long drawn out essay.

Jesus loves by giving us Himself so we have more than what we want and there is no room for dread.

12hr=daylight

Martha= busy bee, sees Jesus first awknowledges Him as Lord but still doubts.

Hope= I know whatever you ask for God will give you. Martha needed her brother now, not later.

Resurrection is not an event but a person and a relationship, Jesus is the resurrection. He is the I AM

Do we believe He is the resurrection?

Mary= meets Jesus and falls at His feet. Asking the deeper q Do you love me? Can I trust you?

Jesus confronts Martha with truth, where as He confronts Mary with someone to be there, someone to trust and who will weep with her. Jesus wept- not rebuking her grief. Jesus knew His friend would rise again but He still wept.

Death is not natural.

Only here because we cut ourselves off from God. Death is wrong and not part of God's creation. When we loose someone grief is natural, good, and healthy.

Jesus prays and awknolwdges the Father. That they may know God sent Jesus.

Sin makes you stupid and blind. All the pharasees could think about was themselves. So they plotted to kill to save themselves, ultimately destorying themselves. Good job guys.

How do we respond? without fear, we cant control this kind of God. We must submitt, He is the Resurrection and Life.

Do we believe that we will not face death alone?

Do we believe Jesus is the Resurrection and the Life?

We need to cry out "Oh death, where is your victory? where is your sting?"

Poetry

Happy Easter to everyone! Jesus has risen... 2010 years ago! YAY! We wont be burning in hell, we will be in heaven.
Okay... Poetry for the day:
Inspired at 11:30pm April 3, 2010

Your love.... does it match my love?
I love your greater than
       the north at Christmas
       the south in the spring
       the west in the summer
       the east in the fall

Oh how I love you, my Lord and King.
You are to be praised everyday
for your majestic beauty and reign
To just cry upon your sandles and wash your feet
would be more than enough for me.

That old beautiful cross, to cry upon its edges and worship the king who died to set me free. I wont need anything except my King. He who loved me. (The words form a cross)

Boy meets Girl
Girl meets Boy
Is it destined to be?
Love happens, so they say
But could it really be today?

I know that poem sucks, sorry. I didnt work on it that much. Just kinda typed up what I was thinking.
Family is coming to town today :) They will be here after I work at PCLA. Today is a confusing day..... my boyfriend confused me. lol. Boys are confusing in general anyways. So.... yah..... More later.

But I know one thing.... I love you

So.... it has been a crazy month. After the passing of many people in my life, I have realized that life is short, so I should learn to live it to its fullest. Which is kinda one of the reasons I have not blogged in a month. Clinicals are going ok. Saw my first OR this past Thursday. I have become a fan of Michael Buble music, which I am currently listening to. And I have a boyfriend, once again. Causing me to change my ring around, because I am in love with him. Not sure what else to blog about atm... so more late.
Love,
ER